Something That I Pass In My Life – With the increasing of my age, something which never I know before comes to me much and much in life. So many things in life I pass with never done. During my college, all of the things are hard to do, one and one first.
I make many mistakes in college, and I know I haven’t the opportunity to make my mistake to be correct again. I just walk and walk. I am not already to some significant responsibility.
In a love story, for example, I am not already telling her about my feelings. All of the things in my mind should talk. It is not the time to explain.
But I do not know what the best time it is. I am afraid if I tell her about my feelings, it just broke our friend relationship before. I think at the time I choose if we have a long relationship then we have an awkward relationship.
In the other example, after I finished my student college association career (what can I called Kemahasiswan?). So many everyday things hooked me up.
Lost in My Life
I lost my genuine desire. I lost my value. I lost my spirit. I never feel like this moment. I try many things to make something change in my life.
Sometimes I think I haven’t many people to share with them honestly my problems. With my denials, I hope other people didn’t know my problem.
It just a new problem for people with who I share my questions. But sometimes it’s so hard not to communicate with others to share our load in my mind.
I just say thank you for my friends who hear me at a hard moment. Without all of you, maybe I am not clearing my vision again. Because people’s lives are normal, but only their interpretation made beautifully.